BENTO ♥

Boooored , dicking around and trying to learn how to cook Japanese traditional dishes. Ah, Food..
Will try it out this weekend or next week.
Weekend coming up :)
Finally getting some free time. I need some, trust me, i do.

[...]

* i'm nice enough to forgive but not stupid enough to forget
i'm nice enough to understand but not stupid enough to trust
I hope u are smart enough to not fuck it all over.
That's all i have to say.
Now you do whatever you want.
I honestly don't care
But just so you know, there's no second chance with me, Honey.


With Love, YZ ♥

Don't know what i'm doing anymore..

Everyone has up and downs and i think i'm hitting straight down the hills thousand miles a second. Not me but my mind. Crazy thoughts coming around and knocking me down.

Got my report card yesterday, ugh. & temperature outside went from 25 to 5 degrees ..
My white shoes were all soaked. And its snowing. Yes , snowing in April.
I was planing on starting my history project today but ..meeh too lazy.. i'll do it tmr. Promise :)

* are u worth the trust? are u for real? if u are not, then get out of my face please.

With Love, YZ

LOVE (Leave Out ViolencE) Concert

Collaboration Conert benefiting L.O.V.E (http://www.leaveoutviolence.com/source/) with Rochester Philaharmonic Youth Orchestra
Special performance by Dubmatique
Sponsored by Little Burgundy Shoes.

@7pm.

Leaving soon. -to Eglise Saint-Jean-Baptiste for rehersal.

* every happy moment comes with a bad one. and who the fuck is that bitch?..

Happiness

It doesn't come around often.
But when i'm with you, it does.
I'm such a happy girl right now.
Honestly, I can't ask for more and I don't have to wait for more
I got what I've always wanted.
Having a reason to smile is a beautiful thing
I don't happen to be this happy everyday
But when I am, I only share it with you because you are the reason of my happiness.
Everyone can stare into my eyes but none will see the same thing as you do
& you said it .. "everything happens for a reason"

With Love, YZ

Perfect

Falling a thousand feet per second
You still take me by surprise
I just know we can’t be over I can see it in your eyes
Making every kind of silence takes a lot to realize
It is worse to finish then to start all over and never let it lye
And as long as I can feel you holding on
I won’t fall even if you said I was wrong

I’m not perfect but I keep trying ‘cause that’s what I said I would do from the start
I am not alive if I’m lonely
So please don’t leave

When you’re caught in a lie
And you got nothing to hid
eWhen you’ve got nowhere to run
And got nothing inside
It tears right through me
You thought that you knew me
You thought that you knew

I’m not perfect but I keep trying..

Perfect - Hedley

Cause they love bitches

Why do men take nice girls for granted?
'Cause they love bitches

Why do men love bitches?
'Cause they can stand up for themselves.

Why do men love bitches who stand up for themselves?
'Cause its less of a burden for them


- quoted from the book Why Do Men Love Bitches?

* I find this very true. Note that, bitches here stand for strong women

Happy Birthday

Seventeen and all grown up. Thank you for all the wishes and gifts, i really appreciate them.
Went out; eat + shopping.
omfg i bought two awesome dresses + black high heels for my coming up concerts

Laying on my bed, tired. [ I did wrong - 2am] playing *
Thinking about the past 17 years, although i can only remember half of it.
Last year has changed my life
This year , even more
I still have a long way to go and yknow.. life isn't always easy
I bet the upcoming year will be disastrous and filled with happy moments at the same time
While blowing the candles, i always thought i would wish for it
But i didn't, i wished for something else..
I really wish this year will be great. really..

With Love, YZ

toooo fast.

Time goes by too fast. Turning 17 tomorrow, its unbelievable.

[We say that time is the only proof, time goes by so fast, we can hardly grab it. Feeling lost or feeling down, sun keeps shining and life goes on. If you can't stand up straight, crawl, keep going.. ]

I'm actually really satisfied and happy with what i have these days. I guess i finally can look beyond imperfections and find happiness. ♥

With Love, YZ

jeesus.

My report card overall average is going to be 10-15% lower this term..
I'll work hard this term.. promise? (A)

..naa screw that , promises are shit. I'll try tho.

Ive been pretty hype this week hah. So please don't let stuffs get in my way and let me down.
Thank you ,God.

With Love, YZ

2 min

Until America's Best Dance Crew Championship Finale !
POREOTIX ALL THE WAY , YAA BITCH YAAAH! xD

*kinda worried about someone @_@

Another saturday.

Since when do I wake up at 8 on Easter break? Since we started orchestra rehersal this morning....
Alarm woke me up at 8, I blinked, and it was 9. Rush into the bathroom and ran to Victoria Hall.
Way to start my day.
Then headed to Cote-Vertu ; Dentist appointment. .. It was 30 freakinpainfull minutes.
Got one hour and a half until my violin lesson. Went to Tim Hortons, ordered 2 cream cheese bagels and iced cappuccino. 98739874 something calories, totally skipping supper. Like hell I will
And I just sat there texting and doing history project till 4:30 and took the 121 for violin lesson.
&more violin tomorrow 1:30-3:00... aah
*windy day, my hair got raped by the wind.

[...]
You are free to fly,so fly high.
Not restricting you anymore, not expecting anymore, not trying anymore
We've got nothing to prove, nothing to ask more
You know it and I know it
No need for words
We know its still there
So fly now, I'll be here to catch you if ever you fall
Like I promised you to
Don't be afraid anymore, don't have doubt anymore
Just land whenever you feel tired, whenever you lose your wing.

no name

和你在一起的每一天變成了一種習慣, 想你的每分每秒也變成了一種習慣.
他們說, 你做某些事情有時候並不是出於喜歡,而是漸漸成為了習慣.
可能在一起真的變成了一種機械的過程
但是當你拉住我的手,看著我的時候, 為什麼一切都變得那麼真實
但是當你緊緊抱住我,不肯放開的時候, 為什麼可以聽到你眼淚滴在我肩膀上的聲音
為什麼每一個我愛你都那麼讓我心痛
為什麼每一個我想你都那麼的誠懇

[...]

這是我以前每天都問自己的問題
現在不問了 因為我懂了
一切的一切都充足的証明著愛情的存在
能夠互相陪伴著面對這殘酷的世界
真的..就足夠了..

可能會說我很傻，相信愛情這種東西
實我並不相信愛情，相信的是我們
真心愛過一次，真心痛過一次，就學會了珍惜
可是天真也漸漸的被時間沖淡..

可能不能陪伴你一輩子
沒有我的日子你要好好的
但是我發誓，直到這一天的來臨，我會一直陪著你
這條路，真的好漫長
其實終點不重要，到哪裡也不重要
隻要有你，每一站都是幸福的.

Yz 8/04/10

Reply

Recently, i've received some emails by people who read my blogs and three quater of them come up with a similar question - " how do you deal with problems in your life and stay so positive?"
And i decided to do a reply to this question.

So first of all, I am not well positionned to make a point on this because most of the time I don't know what to do with my problems. And of course, everybody's different so everyone has different issues. One thing for sure, I am very very optimist as a person.
When facing a problem, some people decide to rip their heads off trying to figure their way out. Some people put all blames on other people and take revenge. Some people leave it there and just move on. But let's face it, what happened happened and whatever you do isn't going to change a thing. Its just all about making yourself feel guilty, feel less guilty or trying to hide it. Since nothing is going to change it, might as well take it easy. Lay down, and think about it. What you did wrong, what other people did wrong, what caused all this, is there a way to solve things peacefully, what will be the consequence, what's best for you? And by the time you got all these figured out, your head will be half cleared up. Then what you have to tell yourself is that, life is hard and other issues will eventually come up later in your life. If everytime it comes and smash you down to the ground and you dont get up, well you'll be lying on the floor for the rest of your life. How about you tough it up and get through this with confidence? Smile to yourself and remind yourself of all the opportunities you have in your life that someone else in this world would crave for.

And listen to songs like I'm Yours by Jason Mraz, it helps trust me.

With Love, YZ

heey hottie, you make me smile like no one does

I'm so happy I think ima die xD
Going to start research for history project soon .. ><

Enjoying the cloudy days at home.


&.. miss you.

Here's a little something

With Love, YZ

Happy Easter folks

Yesterday, tour de montreal a pied with a friend of mine from Ottawa.. Sunburn x_x
Hmm.. need some rest at home cuz i look like a peeled tomato fuck.

Still got 7 days left. <3

Darling.
You want freedom,you want love, you want everything..
I'm giving everything to you, my love and myself.
Trying to understand you, trying to help you.
I'm doing my best.
Will you understand one day?


With Love, YZ

Its raining sunshine

So leave the heavy thoughts behind. Walk out the door and RUN!

...

Il fait beau. 25 degrees! Went out with ZW fundraising ( LOL we're such losers) + chilling
had Kimchi Instant noodle an hour ago. 10pm .. I got hungry . yeah..

Anyways. it's surprising how I can be so understanding now. I learned to look at stuffs a different way and it makes me so much happier.

Going to take a shower, got visit tomorrow morning.

With Love, YZ