March break

I can't believe I did not post for V-day. shame on me :(
Soo, Spring break has just started ...and we got shitloads of hws!
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Yesterday was Nuit Blanche and I went to Old Port with friends. Marshmallow is yummy haha
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My emotions have been all messed up since a few weeks and I just can't focus on anything..
I always postpone my responsabilities because I'm afraid to face them.
'I'll move out when i get 18' ' Ill find a better job when I move out' 'Ill start taking care of myself when i get 18' ' Ill learn to manage my income when I get 18' 'I will start considering a serious relationship when i get 18' ...
Rly, what is being 18? Its just a symbolic number, which means NOTHING. Im turning 18 next month and I do not see myself turning all responsible in a snap. I can't do shit right now and it will stay the same on April 18th. Everything just keeps drowning me down when I try to figure out a way to take control of my own life. Its so depressing
Dreams are always wonderful but reality is another thing. Right now i feel weak, I dont have enough courage to fight for myself and my future.. I just keep runing and runing from the truth but I keep coming back to the same point. How do I move on?
I desperately need something to motivate me right now but I can't seem to find it..
Staying on pc all night, listening to music, thinking about useless things in life.. I can use some serious help right now..
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I hope the next post will be something less depressing, I hope I will find my motivation in life until then

Happy Chinese New Year!

Its february 2nd and its the all mighty Chinese Lunar New Year :)
This is supposed to be a cheerful occasion, it has always been one in my memories.
But this year its kind of different.
As a kid, I used to go back to China every New Year to celebrate with family.
Hot pot, fire crackers, fireworks, dumplings, red everywhere, smile on everyones face... I miss them so much, it warms me up just to think about it.
Family is where I belong.

We stoped going back to China every New Year since 2000 and its been 11 years now.
Since 11 years, I've always celebrated this occasion at school or on the phone with my grandparents. It feels like something is missing..

Last year, my grandfather passed away the day before New Year. I didnt get a chance to tell him happy new year and how much I miss him & love him.
Yesterday I was on the phone with my family and just hearing my grandparents voice makes my heart aches so bad. I dont know if thats the last new year wish I will be sending them, I dont know if I will be able to see them again.. They were crying on the phone and they told me that since 11 years, new year has never been complete without my parents and me.
I really miss them so much..I miss my Home..

@ 12 am midnight, I looked outside my window. Everything was cold, calm and distanced. I was supposed to feel all warm and cheerful...

Now this is a very depressing Chinese New Year :(
And I know many people share my feelings right now.

So I wish you all a very happy chinese new year! ( This year is rabbits year btw! )

Happy New Year!

Can't believe 2010 is already gone. I must say that 2010 was a shitty year and I hope 2011 will be a better one for all of us!

NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS:

- Smile as often as possible and be happy
- Eat healthier
- Go on a trip this summer with parents
- Find an apartment and a better job
- Be able to take care of myself
- Get into Vanier
- Grow longer, healthier hair
- Enjoy this awesome 18th year :)




Wooot , red coat for New Year :)
Firework @ Old port ( countdown)

Me and my dad :)

Last minutes of 2010, put your hands up !!

Time flies by and we often don't get the time to catch every opportunity. Sometimes, we are just too busy struggling with our own little dramas to look up and see the better side of life. If you look beyond everything, the only things that matter in life are health and happiness.
Think about people who die young, people who suffer with cancer, people who spend their lives in a wheelchair or those who live in total darkness.
Think about people who die of hunger, people who have never met their parents...
And this list goes on.
The key that brings happiness into your life is being thankful for what you have
We only have this one life so we must live it to its fullest. Chase your dream, go after what you love. Learn everything you want to and enjoy every moment you live.
Open your heart to feel every beat, open your eyes to see every smile, open your arms to every single person you love.
2011, HERE WE COME!!! :)

BOXING DAY!

How to spend over 800$ in 2 days - 101:

Lunch @ Les 3 Brasseurs Downtown - Beer braised porc shank
I am a food-aholic, if you dont know this yet. And EVERY time I go thru restaurant reviews on the internet, this one always pops out. Its called Les 3 Brasseurs ( The 3 Brewers in english, which sounds odd). It serves Dutch and Germain food which has to come with beer. They actually brew beers on place and offer free all-you-can-eat peanuts, how cute. The beer braised porc shank is on their lunch special menu for 12$ only! The softness and juiciness was just perfect. Cooked patato with butter and seasoned salad matched perfectly with the pork also! I'm definitely going back soon and i truely recommend this restauant for everyone.
L'Avenue - Brunch restaurant
So I've been craving brunch for days and i woke up early today just to fulfill my stomach's fantasy before shopping. That was actually fkn expensive for brunch, but it was well worth it. I ordered British style poached egg and my parents had Salé sucré which was French style. Mine had english muffin, salmon, poached egg and melted cheese on top. The other one had french toast, ham, poached egg and mapple syrup. It came with oven cooked patatoes and tropical fruits. It was freaggin awesome, but I wouldnt spend that much money on brunch. My parents paid it so eeeh, wtv =D

Boboboboxing daaay :) Got bored waiting for my dad to choose a cardigan @ Banana Republic
American Eagle (Aerie)'s bag is so cute LOL ( my ugly UGG's.. I just washed them an hour ago :D)

Got bored .. again waiting for my mom to choose a coat @ Simons - -
On boxing day #1 I wore heels and one piece dress , which was SO BAD for shopping :( Never ever do that guys .. Hence the outfit today ! Hoodie , jeans and UGG. Much better

Wheeeee. 70% of what bought :)
Yeess, i bought a fresh made mask @ LUSH. I heard lots of good stuffs on the Love Lettuce Mask so i got one. The expiration date is January 10th, so I will probably review this product then if I like it.
(LACOSTE had 50% off everything! Can't miss that , can you?; & I got myself a red top for New Year :D)

SOO.. 3 days of vacation flew by and we be chillin ya know =) .. so gay LOL

I'm off to catch up on some TV shows, I can't wait for next week !

merry flipping christmas

Its 2:22am of December 25, 2010.

Vacations, finally. I could rly use some right now

Very productive day

So its snowing like crazy outside and I decided to skip school.
Its been 5 hours now and I didnt do SHIT.
except gettin fat :) had instant noodle + moka cheese cake

SHITLOADS OF WORK TO DO AND I RLY NEED TO GO SHOPPING, SHEESH..
Give me some break already :(

mm anyways im off to pharmaprix , gay i know. PEACE

( Lack of words )

so the 4 days longweekend, literally, flew by.
Marianopolis was fun but i think im still going for Vanier.. had HOTPOT with friends for supper that night! ;
Went to L'Oreal outlet Friday and the rest of the weekend = 24h library @_@
So here are some of the stuffs i bought from the outlet :D


L'Oreal Bare Naturale mineral powder & Vichy Dermablend high pigmentation concealer
I didnt open the foundation yet, i bought it for the word ' Mineral' since i love it so much
and the concealer is like the shit. It so thick, a tiny bit goes a long way.

(The missha eyeshadow stick was there for some reason...i didnt buy it at L'Oreals )
Maybelline Eyestudio eyeshadow. well, i dont usually use eyeshadows so i bought something versatile. Taupe brown; shimmery pin and champagne. The champagne can be used as a highlighter and the taupe one, an eyeliner.

Maybelline XXL mascara and L'Oreal one( forgot the name)
Thats my first 2heads mascara; microfiber base and the mascara itself. I find it such a waste of time since the result didnt surprise me. But it wasnt as thick as i thought it would be so im fine with it. The l'Oreal one : ive been using it since 3 years and its awesomely unreplaceble!(however u spell it ..)

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So recently, I'm taking herbal medecine to restablish my hormones and reduce pimples. I'm at my second week so far and i can see a slight improvement. While taking my medicines, i'm also using honey (goodiiiieee) to help the result. Honey has antibacterial benefits and it heals skin damages. I spread some on my face after i wash it at night and leave it on for a good 30 minutes. I also dilute some with hot water and drink it since it cleanses ur stomach leftovers and helps period pains.
TA-DAA! i bought this huge thing at Costco and i looove it :)

isn't it so cute ?

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1 month left before christmas finals. I'm stressing my ass out here.. I think i might just move into the library for a month - - I srsly spend more time in the library than at home..thats not right. NOT RIGHT
Such a nerd i am, i even drew a fkn study plan for this month which is to be completed. I sticked it to my desk to remind myself that I.NEED.TO.STUDY.!

Ok u might think i'm crazy now, but I dont understand shit in class so its the only way out.
And guess what i'm going to do now?
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STUDY MORE! D:

Shitty sunday

So i studied all day at UQAM's library yesterday after WYO rehersal @ McGill
Got home around supper and found a post-it on the fridge
' honey i made u soups and pasta, they are in the oven. Love, mom'
Aw great. PC all night, & fell asleep before my parents came home.
SLEPT 5 freaking hours ; got up early for L'Oreal outlet sale AND didnt even get in..so many ppl @_@ ugh
and parents decided to go to IKEA. I wasnt in the mood so i stayed in the food section enjoying free refill coffee and my breakfast
Got home and pc was having some problems.. fixed it by myself ! I'm SUCH a genius
First day of taking herbal medicines and its probably like the worst thing i ever drank..
It was bitter, hot, sour and to make it even better, it looked like extracted juice from cow shit.. 1 L of that, i was that close to puking - -
But since its so good for me, i sucked it up. EWWW one - four months of that crap every day?
the result better be worth it ..

Sooo i got some body butter since my old one is almost done. i know i neveruse lip balms but it came with my 2 body creams so why not?


..now, i rly have to catch up on reading.

Report cards!

MUHAHAHA! i got fucking 80% average , YEEEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSS
i KNEW everything will pay off in the end , YESYESYES!
Now i just keep it up and hope to reach for an 85 next term *crossfingers
.. sorry guys , im just ubber excited! AWYEA

My life is quite tasteless right now.. school, library, orchestra, work, eat, sleep.. and so on
i dont even have time to go out anymore. sadsad
But luckily, 4days longweekend next week, yeeeh. Going to Marianopolis next thursday for Student-a-day thingy. Cant wait

Peace out my lovely people

HAPPY HALLOWEEN

Dress up day @school ; Friday. FOR HALLOWEEN :D NERD POWER!

here is my uglyass grad pic.. My dad was so excited, he framed every single one of them and now i can see it in almost every single corner of my house !..

that was last week, Girls For Cure (Breast cancer) Breakfast. The food was great and the speech was kinda long. But we got gifts ! haha . All this for waking up at 5 in the morning & almost getting lost trying to find Sheralton Hotel in the pouring rain.

I rly have to update this shit more often .. huh :\
Wondering how am I still alive after all the exams. And I got so upset because although the hard works, I still didn't do good. Might even failed some.. UGH Someone kill me now?

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Beside that, I'm doing quite fine and life is interestig :)
Went to 3 Amigos (yummy shrimp linguini & beef tacos) and Concordia Library yesterday..
IT frkn SNOWED! gaaaaaah